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My relationship with my transvestism is something that fascinates me greatly and is something I really enjoy analysing and on rare occasions get to discuss, I am completely fascinated by my transgender feelings. I do often question my motives as being a transvestite brings with it a lot of emotions and satisfaction, indeed a sense of fulfilment yet it also carries for me doubt and guilt and confusion. I know it's not popular and I'm told unwelcome but I won't deny I do at times experience sexual arousal, usually during the transformation stage as of course I don't desire any tell tale reminders of being male once I am completely transformed as Helene. I also get a buzz at the notion of being sexy and feminine and like the idea of being seductive and being found desirable by men. That aspect is nothing to do with sex and everything to do with being selfish and vain. I enjoy the art of female illusion and attracting men is probably my ego being pandered to by the thrill of fooling a male into believing I'm female. I'm a shallow creature at heart I fear. I thought these guys must be buying them for their wives or their girlfriends or moms,” shares Chen on our call. “I soon realized that these men were actually just buying for themselves.” The Bishops assistant opened the rather puzzling envelope and extracted an equally puzzling missive. I can understand why you were upset. You had already taken things to the “next level” in your heart—you were thinking of this guy as your boyfriend—you just hadn’t gotten around to informing him about the upgrade. And you assumed that when you did get around to letting him know, he would be delighted. Because he was the one who wanted a relationship at the beginning, right?
Fortunately we did. Having caused such upset to those I cherish dearly and realising they did not like the idea of me dressing as a woman at all I decided I would try to minimise it’s effects upon them. Selfishly though, I was now more determined to go through with my cross-dressing. I have however severely restricted the number of times I cross-dress so it never causes them further upset and I feel truly fortunate they tolerate my need. Realising suddenly that if she wants this evening to be as painless as possible, she really must do as her father suggests and make an effort to try and please her mother, even if the idea of a husband finding ball appals her, Lettice sighs and acquiesces with a nod. “Very well Mamma.” My sister made good her promise to totally ignore me in the future, while my mother reminded me of my sins on a daily basis for many months. In the end, completely fed up with the nagging and bad atmosphere, I went into an Army recruiting office and signed on with the Boys’ Service. My mother readily signed the approval forms, saying that it would make a man out of me! Ugh!” Lettice’s nose screws up in disgust. “I’m not dancing with Sir John! He’s… he’s so old and lecherous!” The producer, his camera crew and the actors were all cleared and released, the authorities soon realizing that they had been the patsy’s for a for more organized ring of thieves. It is believed the stolen gems never left the country, but whomever eventually fenced them was not amongst the ones known to the authorities.I gasped, and remained silent, not knowing what to say. Instead, I sat there, trying to fathom it all out in my mind. We drank our tea and after the two women chatted quietly a bit more, Mrs A. left the house. Gerald Bruton and his acerbic tongue have been a bad influence on you since you both moved to London and started spending more time together.” Lady Sadie quips. “Oh, and whilst we are on the subject of Gerald, I don’t want you spending all evening with him, ensconced in a corner, gossiping, and deriding our guests. Do you understand?” I then had a lot of fun getting into the persona of my female alter-ego and my ambition, though I admit I have no idea if I achieved it, was to try and create an appearance of being a woman that men may find desirable.
Suddenly I almost jumped out of my skin and my heart stopped as the bedroom door opened, and there in the doorway staring at me, was my mother, with my sister Sally peering right behind her! I can still recall how as a teenager I would shake with nerves at the prospect of anyone finding out I wanted to dress as a girl and to act like one. This became worse as I grew older. I did endeavour to suppress and ignore my transvestite nature and for over twenty years I had no involvement with it at all physically. I say physically because in my head it never diminished, I would be consumed at times with the desire to dress as a woman, I badly wanted to do it. I would force myself to squash such thoughts and try and get on with being a man. At some point someone in the group started to admit to their big life secret and this was followed by another colleague admitting to his. The admissions began to pour out and some were quite heavy indeed, things people had feared to admit previously. Inevitably all eyes turned to me to confess my secret. I admitted openly amongst the noise of the ongoing battle that I was desperate to spend time dressing up and acting as a woman, I really wanted to be a female now and again that I was a transvestite and in my head adored the idea of casting off my masculine self and taking on a female persona for a few hours.
That afternoon when I got home from school my mum was again awaiting me, but this time she was looking particularly happy. “Come up to your bedroom Georgie, I have got a surprise for you.” Sometimes I almost pass out with fear when I act like I find men attractive or talk about my (imaginary) ex husband and boyfriends. The man in me is repelled by this yet the woman I am attempting to portray feels at home. I do try to get over my male fears as I do dream of one day passing convincingly in every way as a woman. I kind of believe if I want to appear realistically to be female then I need to become female in my thinking and interaction. To which I say... if that's the case, it's child abuse, for sure. But it's an entirely separate issue from the marital status of the parents involved. But even though most of the leads in the original case proved to be so many red herrings left by the Pygmalion Ring , the police still maintain confidence that justice will prevail, even though the reality of the matter is that the original trail is growing ever colder…….like ice!
With their daughters and wife safely returned, the pressure was let off by the families. The insurance companies squawked a bit, but then there is no ever pleasing that lot! For example if I was kissed by a man when I am portraying myself as a woman then that is not me being homosexual, that is me acting the part of a woman, it’s about making my female alter-ego seem real as a woman by playing her as a woman not a a man, it’s not about wanting a kiss from a man as I am not attracted to men. I think many transvestites wrestle with this but if you are keen to enjoy being a woman and have people believe you are female you need to act the part convincingly rather than highlight you may not be how you appear to be. You always said that coyness was an alluring charm.” Lettice remarks sweetly in return, knowing that this will goad her mother, but unable to resist the temptation to do so.
Further investigation revealed that the magazine used was an Eastminster Diocesan magazine, and the article the letters were cut out from was one that told about the annual charity ball held at St . Davids? So they Pygmalion Ring had a bit of a sense of humour.
My father clearly did not approve of my appearance and apart from calling me ‘Gloria’ which I hated, dinner was eaten in silence. I noticed that Mum had given me a smaller meal than usual and I soon realised why! Soon afterwards, my father began complaining about my dress and Mum started arguing with him. The other major change was buying an airbrush make-up applicator kit. This uses a technique where the foundation, which is silicone based, is sprayed on in an aerosol form creating a smooth flawless foundation coverage on your face. It can make your skin look a lot smoother. It’s usually used for applying foundation make-up in cinema films and television as it produces a smooth skin finish. Never believe the women you see in films and on television have amazing skin, it is all down to make-up techniques using applicators such as the airbrush.There was also discovered, a thumbprint on the letter. , which for a time greatly excited the local authorities… Until it was discovered that the thumbprint belonged to The Bishop of the Diocese of Eastminister! The detectives who had been sent for the car, found it with all the doors open, as well as the trunk, while a man was bust vacuuming out the interior. For me to appear, or more accurately attempt to appear as a woman is a heady powerful emotional desire that I will openly admit I am drawn to. I simply adore dressing up as a woman and trying to pass myself off as a female. Surely this is not what a man should be doing? Well, that's what society may tell us yet I live as a man and love to be a woman. The flight attendants days later were interviewed, none of them=m could clearly remember any passengers fitting the descriptions of the priest, the smarmy Romeo, or the two mysterious ladies… The travel de necessaire, complete with miniature jewellery, I acquired from Melody Jane’s Doll House Suppliers in the United Kingdom.
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